Epilogue: First to Last

From the first laugh I ever had To the last tear I'll ever shed Before and after, you were there It's always been you A moment of silence for the violence That just rampages our daily life stages And yeah, dark is just such an arbitrary word To say how we feel if we want to be heard 'Cause I don't know what's guiding me I don't know if I'm taking a step In this tunnel called life, I'm just walking it blind To begin with, I'm not even sure of what's mine What's wrong, it's fine, what's on your mind Weird, I can't trust you like all the time 'Cause I don't feel like you're dangerous And I know how much you change for us And even when I wake up Champagne when we break up Got that still life but I still, like, feel, like It sucks, like, that's how we end the night From the first laugh I ever had To the last tear I'll ever shed Before and after, you were there It's always been you One time, two pills, three stacks, looking for that Five days, six pack, I know that, I gotta get all that Seventeen strokes I finally got up here, but I don't have a name so all I know is here I gotta get a job to get more cash to get a life in which I can get all that But I know I get homesick Twelve shots and I'm feeling kinda bloated And so I drop my keys and I take a walk But all you want is to talk the talk Inside a padded cell in a four wall world Twenty-four karat and a shattered pearl So when I come back in to a dimmer light I switch it off to enjoy the night You know we found it here Our hope forever real And I'm here right now Here right ooh ooh I don't want a fake love, I'll be real 'Cause my one two three is not ideal I hit you with the four five six and pray 'Hey please respond,' and I grind all day But no hit, I'm never close to a hit When I'm swinging all wild, miss, they be like 'oh yeah' 'No shit, no idea what's in your head' Pencil pushing lead, I don't even know I'm dead Stop that, I push a little, need a stopgap Mop that, on the ground, feeling proud but I drop that I need some time and I know that Gotta come back From the first laugh I ever had To the last tear I'll ever shed Before and after, you were there It's always been you